DIVINE INTERVENTION

there's a God for sure.

juz when i wuz all so stressed up and waiting for a sign from the Almighty(wuz act looking for prayers on da net...), my dad called. n da nxt moment i noe, he's in my hall, wid a bottle of milk n SUSHI to brighten my day. :) :) :) :) :) :) definitely my guardian angel in disguise. reallie luv my family. :)

will not disappoint them no matter wat. for all u doubters out there, i will prove tt im worthy. but den again, dun reallie care bout wat they tink. so long 对得起自己.

God exists. n He answers my prayers in the most subtle way. while we myt be whining ever on bout our scheldules and commitments, we shud reallie take a step back to consider wat we are fortunate to hav. Praise the Lord.

all it takes is a change in perspective, n i am happy again. no pt. sulking over da uncertainties. onli time will tell.

n of cos, action speaks louder.

amen.

CHALLENGE

juz finished my mb102 tutorial. if onli m101 is as simple as tt... cow... marina lee sux!!!

did up a time table for my commitments as an undergrad(n as an independent son). so much to accomplish in such a tight schedule... rather low morale juz at da look of it...

need time to adjust to dis new life. but i will not let dis be an excuse for failure in my priorities. sacrifices hav to be made. in short, no time to fool arnd.

shall try to adapt. gotta get used to da phrase i havnt been using for a while. 苦中作乐.

God will be there wid mi.

amen.

HMMM

nv noe tt i hav to reply a TAG... lol... quite fun tho... so here goes!!!

10yrs ago :

1. i wuz in lianhua primary school. da gd old days... :)
2. i ate, slpt, n breathed table tennis.
3. i wuz stress-free.
4. my hormones were rampantly outta control.
5. i tot i found luv.

5yrs ago :

1. i wuz trying hard to learn how to mug wid a company of ah bengs. bad idea.
2. table tennis suddenly dumped mi. n i wuz throwing rubbish instead of playing. hai...
3. i wuz playing soccer wid much joy n passion, not to mention da ability to play it.
4. i knew i will miss sji. how true.
5. i tot i found luv again. turned out real bad. so bad so bad so damn fucking bad.

1yr ago :

1. suffering in army. juz came back from thailand cresendo. traumatised wid my man's loss.
2. clubbin' my life away. tot there wasnt much to do anywae. lolz...
3. din noe my brain was actually functional till now.
4. wuz looking forward to uni life.
5. i tot of luv again, but dis time i found new meaning to it, n concluded tt i will nv get lucky in it.

5 songs i knew da words to :
1. A Bad Dream
2. That's Why (You Go Away I Know)
3. Don't Cry
4. 心如刀割
5. 不服

5 snacks i luv n wish i cud eat :

1. PASTA
2. SASHIMI
3. BLACK PEPPER CRAB
4. CURRY FISH HEAD
5. SLURP SLURP AT AH MEI'S!!! ok maybe all of da above are rather heavy snacks??? lolz...

5 places i'd run away to :

1. my hostal.
2. phuture.
3. music underground.
4. mos.
5. anywhere. so long im by myself eg. movie, run, swim etc.

5 things i'd nv wear :

1. tight fits
2. earrings or studs.
3. skirts.
4. mutt-ty fashions.
5. hawaiian shirts.

5 fav. tv shows :

1. go-go jacky.
2. guess³.
3. epls n spls matches.
4. espn sports centre.
5. mtv.

5 greatest joy :

1. my family.
2. my freedom.
3. my pals out there.
4. soccer.
5. tioman.

5. meli5 ppl im tagging :

1. paul, da few tt im fortunate to hav to share my woes.
2. toon, da gang's one n onli.
3. mike, da few surviving bros, haha...
4. weiyang, da partner in crime. lolz...
5. mel, party chic!!! haha...

LOW

suddenly, there's so much to handle.

work, studies, n hu wud hav expect, my feelings are crying for attention.

im sry if hadnt made things as clear n simple as it can be. but i meant wat i say. im sry if i had made u guessed thus far. n i do hope u understand my decision. i dun wanna be unfair to u cos i noe such feeling of being under-rated sux. but u do matter to mi. tts for sure. but perhaps dis isnt da pt. da bottom line is im not ready. n i shud seriously not waste ur time anymore. do hope things can be da same again.

tink im on da verge of depression again. so much to take all of a sudden. n da bloody mb101 n mb102, im gonna f-ing ace u all. mark my words u damn lousy subjects. lol. ok lah at least B. :p

bros, keep out. i dun wanna do any splash damages.

God help us all.

amen.

BLUES

school has started fer gd. slack time table, accompanied by a slack mentality, aint gonna get mi too far though. :p

anywae, my bloody com has been hacked/infested. so thx to ntu im gonna format my com real soon. ..!.. to hu ever responsible.

n btw, im not slack. im juz not ready to settle down to study too much. $$$ is still my main concern now. hai~~~

feeling rather helpless actually. n got sick recently too. sucks to be gg thru these all at once.

shall find motivation from hh n paul. hahaha... reallie impressed wid dis bros. but still, easier said den done.

n btw, i juz wanna comment tt smoking n drinking aint bad unless u lost urself. so long u r in control, its fine. at least tts my opinion. juz rather surprised at how da society or juz ppl arnd mi shun such acts completely. ppl differ u noe. u cant juz judge by wat they do. so toon, if u reallie wan a puff, go buy a pack urself. u can pass da rest to mi n i'll gladly throw/smoke it away for u. hehehe...

still need read my notes. dun understand wtf da lecturer wuz blabbering about da whole ytd. god bless mi, in everythg.

n oh, bro, im truely happy for u. to hav found some1 hu shares da same thinking aint easy. juz cherish wat u hav. n dun forget bout wat u alrdy hav. dun worry so much bout wat ppl say. u noe wat u r doing, everythg will turn out fine. cos sad to say, im getting lost in every sense as compared to u. haha...

once again. God bless.

amen.

UGLY

fuck man.

if things stay dis way, i'd rather not come home.

God, help.

amen.

GETTING READY...

juz when i wuz thinking wat to blog about, its suddenly came across to mi tt im starting sch n not knowing its school anthem. hmmm... says alot bout uni life huh?

anywae, since ntu is making life so damn difficult for mi, why shud i care? im tokking bout subject registration n add/drop period. spent da whole day planning my time table onli to realise tt im not allowed to plan it, n half da time thinking of wat to take for pe/ue onli to discover tt i can onli poh heng suey. nin lau hiah...

ok lah. its juz mi. getting reallie freaky over da prospect of wat lies ahead. maybe its juz a wake up call for da challenges ahead.

tink i worry too much. some stuff are best left wid room for exploration den having da definite answers fer them. but tts juz mi. i dun lyk uncertainties. i dun lyk 1/2-f answers. I DUN LYK CHANGES. haha... but bo bian... im a student all over again. undergrad, to be more exact.

will be w/o my com till my sis decides on wat laptop to buy. onli den im allowed to bring da com to my hostel. so will try to add more to dis post.

rather worried wid da previous tie-down regarding my commitment to my hostel. am i supposed to play fer ivp or juz inter-hall? i hope its juz da latter. reallie need a change. n time to give my wrist a break. medical review tmr morning. hope everythg turns out fine.

reallie looking forward to hall life. or rather juz having a room tt i can call MINE. 21yrs of privacy intrusion aint no joke. enuff is enuff! haha... but im still glad of dis family. even tho i find my dad increasingly petty. kao.

time to go. sis wanna play scrabble online wid my future bro-in-law... -_-"

until nxt time, God Bless.

amen.

MADNESS

since when has clubbin' become a head-banging session?!?! literally. joyce u cow... hahaha... but i hope u gals had fun. hopefully we din spoil it. da guys were juz concern bout u gals. tts all. cheers to da company nevertheless. :)

last nite phuture's simply awesome. non-stop great music. ouch. n of cos, great to see some familiar faces, as well as some new ppl arnd.

yeah my time table's out. apparently even more slack den those from sim. SHIOK. but all da woes as a student are kicking in alrdy. money, money n $$$!!! hai... pls... some decent assignments asap...

school officially starts nxt week. a whole new beggining.

n i pray for everything tt needs Your attention.

health, cash, time, discipline, adaptability, n joy.

amen.

SPORTS UNION 13

opening ceremony, fe1, fright night at old changi hospital, pool games, night games, sea sports n sea expedition, night cycling from ecp all da way to ntu, fe2, amazing race sports edition arnd s'pore, sp night, n finally, the grand finale.

sports camp, in short, was a blast. impressive organisation n preparation, not to mention da ever entertaining events. n of cos, da ppl there are amazing as well. certainly da best camp arnd, no regrets ever, as da group leaders and block leaders have assured. da friendship forged will nv be forgotten.

actually, i reallie dunno how to define dis bonding between us. its not lyk those kinda thru-thick-n-thin friendship, yet it does qualify in some sense. its definitely not those superficial friendship tt i hate most, those hi-bye friends some of us myt hav. but im sure sports camp is da catalyst tt drew us closer to one another, anythg more will of cos depends on da efforts we made to grow dis friendship. but nevertheless, thank God for such a company throughout dis 7 days.

its oso amazing how ppl hu come from such different backgrounds can click n understand each other in some subtle yet accurate ways. maybe tts wat shit does to u. maybe tts why u make some reallie gd friends in army. haha... even though others myt find our group too quiet, at da end of da day da results say it all; we sure can work together, n there's no need of morale boosting cheers or bonding sessions to make it happen. most importantly, we had fun in our own ways. :)

n of cos, da end is always a beginning. will be busy moving into my hostel dis few days. n before i realise, SCHOOL STARTS NXT WEEK!!! -_-"

im seriously not ready. are u?

but den again, i have You.

amen.

meanwhile, here's another 1 from da camp:

yee-pah, under-leh!!!
pah-li-ah-pah!!!
apple, apple, orange hor-li-gah!
圆得不拿， 扁的拿！
扁的不拿，圆的拿！
圆的拿，扁的拿！
HYDRA, HYDRA, 通通拿!