WORKING MY SOCKS OFF

i tell u... it amazes mi how near is my workplace to my house... A FREAKING 3 MIN WALK!!! wahaha...

yup i job-hopped again. dis time im genuinely happy. cos most of da time im sitting inside da shop acting pretty, reading newspaper or some books ( yes momo im finishing Life of Pi!!!), trying to make myself busyby rearranging displays. n yes i hav to admit, i do have a more feminine side, and its scary how gay it feels, yet im enjoying it. fuck. wat eugene says myt be rite. i do qualify for singapore brokeback mountain. fuck fuck fuck.

oh in case i havnt do some advertising, its at lot1 shopper's mall, lvl 5, cinema lvl tt is. selling tabletennis equipments and hp, ipod, creative and camara pouches. as expected business hav been reallie slow, to some extent bad. but i tink things will change fer da better once all da publicities and advertisements are made dis weekend.

i tink wat attract mi bout dis job aint cos its slack or pay. ok lah maybe da convenience. OK LAH MAYBE ITS REALLIE DAMN SLACK. hahaha... but i tink da best part of it is tt it makes mi feel impt. why? erm imagine given da responsibility of da whole shop! from timely opening and untimely closing of da shop, maintainence of general cleaniness n tidiness, stock accounting, displays, to da normal socialising wid customers and sales services. it may sound reallie exploited, but i feel lyk my own boss. hahaha... can u imagine i can actually hav da initiative to wipe da display window and sweep da floor. my mum, and my previous army bunkmates will be shock i tell u... hahaha...

but den again, maybe its juz plain boredom. n i come to realise da commission im able to earn r peanuts. eh fuck peanuts are worth more. but satisfaction is all im feeling rite now.

oh hav i forgotten bout a pt.?

im feeling challenged n motivated.


n im feeling happy. :)

amen.

STILL LOVING YOU

all da reasons to learn guitar, not mentioning my lacking in musical talent of cos. back to da days in sispec, suffering and missing some1 not worthy of my time... dis is one hellava classic.

Time, it needs time
To win back your love again
I will be there, I will be there

Love, only love
Can bring back your love someday
I will be there, I will be there

Try, baby try
To trust in my love again
I will be there, I will be there

Love, our love
Just shouldn't be thrown away
I will be there, I will be there

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Your pride has built a wall, so strong
That I can't get through
Is there really no chance
To start once again

If we'd go again
All the way from the start
I would try to change
The things that killed our love
Yes, I've hurt your pride, and I know
What you've been through
You should give me a chance
This can't be the end
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you
I'm still loving you, I need your love
I'm still loving you
Still loving you baby

LIFE...

maybe wat u said is true. but tt onli reillierates life sux. tts sad. juz sad. 好人没好报。maybe it will unfold in some other way, but da fact tt been nice to da 1 u lyk or luv or cherish yet unable to feel appreciated is juz sad. but of cos, how many times do we realli appreciate da ppl hu care for us? 人是在失去了才懂得珍惜。 we all noe how true tt can be. so if im not missed when im gone, tt onli shows im not worth cherishing isnt it? so yup, ive concluded tt im not tt gd after all. shall reflect on tt.

on da other hand guan, wtf happened to ur blog??? hahaha...

i tink, we shud invest our everythg in smthg more real. smthg lyk OURSELVES. hahaha... see... lyk wat i told toon. how can we fail to give ourselves treats when we so willingly spend on others, say gals, esp when we are not confirmed of its returns. tts y, at da end of da day, i feel wats most impt is to be happy OURSELVES. to hell wid da thinking of ‘只要她开兴就好’. so all bros out there, are u treating urself well todae??? if u r still doubting bout it, don't, BECAUSE YOU ARE WORTH IT. =)

BOOK-O-PHOBIA...

i realise my new job is driving mi crazy, so much so to da extent tt i went for a run juz now! even my dad commented, ' omg! u can run!?!?' "-_-

yup. other den shelving countless books tt nv seem to be in place, im supposed to do despatch from da library to da directors' floor. in addition, clearing up da storeroom, photostating and stapling are juz some other errants expected of mi. so in short, im juz a library assistance cum office boy. not like i mind doing all dis easy tasks, but i guess stability comes wid boredom? but ok lah. looking at da bright side, da chix all always accompanying me in da library. n old naggy backstabbing library aunties as well... hahaha...

hanzhong came to visit mi todae. helped quite a bit to ease my time till close shop. catched up on old times, as well as updating each other's 'happenings'. came across hh's old story, both of us still felt sorry fer him. but we realised he's ok since he'd moved on. den suddenly i became da topic.

'u still havnt forgot her rite...'

no. i did. i moved on. or so i believed. i mean, i dun tink bout her anymore. juz tt i cant stop thinking how cheated i still feel.

n yes. now lookin' back. i still regret dis relationship. or shud i juz define it as a fling. it shud nv ever take place.

but back to my own reflection, although im convinced tt i treated her extemely well, am i reallie so 'perfect' as i tot myself to be? am i reallie such a nice guy tt i claimed to be???

i hav no idea. maybe im juz too proud of myself. maybe im juz trying too hard.

any1 out there. be my judge.

or maybe im juz thinking too much again.

but i guess onli god noes.

amen.