BOOK-O-PHOBIA...

i realise my new job is driving mi crazy, so much so to da extent tt i went for a run juz now! even my dad commented, ' omg! u can run!?!?' "-_-

yup. other den shelving countless books tt nv seem to be in place, im supposed to do despatch from da library to da directors' floor. in addition, clearing up da storeroom, photostating and stapling are juz some other errants expected of mi. so in short, im juz a library assistance cum office boy. not like i mind doing all dis easy tasks, but i guess stability comes wid boredom? but ok lah. looking at da bright side, da chix all always accompanying me in da library. n old naggy backstabbing library aunties as well... hahaha...

hanzhong came to visit mi todae. helped quite a bit to ease my time till close shop. catched up on old times, as well as updating each other's 'happenings'. came across hh's old story, both of us still felt sorry fer him. but we realised he's ok since he'd moved on. den suddenly i became da topic.

'u still havnt forgot her rite...'

no. i did. i moved on. or so i believed. i mean, i dun tink bout her anymore. juz tt i cant stop thinking how cheated i still feel.

n yes. now lookin' back. i still regret dis relationship. or shud i juz define it as a fling. it shud nv ever take place.

but back to my own reflection, although im convinced tt i treated her extemely well, am i reallie so 'perfect' as i tot myself to be? am i reallie such a nice guy tt i claimed to be???

i hav no idea. maybe im juz too proud of myself. maybe im juz trying too hard.

any1 out there. be my judge.

or maybe im juz thinking too much again.

but i guess onli god noes.

amen.