HAI...

dis post is specially dedicated to a fren ive known for long.

i dunno wats gg thru ur mind. dunno wat u tink bout mi. but im reallie shack le. maybe cos i din say much. maybe ive been acting rather selfish recently, but da fact tt u keep giving mi half-hearted answers aint gonna help dis frenship. sometimes i dunno if its u or mi. or juz both of us. but i feel if we go on lyk dis da frenship is gg down da drain. sad but true.

if u r not happy wid mi or anythg, juz say it out. dun keep it to urself and say '随便你' or 'up to u'. it feels lyk our frenship is worth dis few words. dun tell mi 'but it is true wat'. u noe wat kinda person i am. if u dun wanna tok bout it, i wun either. its damn shack to do da guessing game. we are guys. not pussies. juz be frank.

i reallie reallie shack le. feeling da way we treating dis issue extremely pussy. is it juz ur personal problem tt u din wan to share or juz problem wid mi? when u feel lyk tokking, den tok to mi. dun wan to gena any unneccesary splash dmg.

dun get mi wrong. im not blaming u. im juz disappointed at how immature our frenship seems to be. do tell mi tt im wrong.

TO AN OLD FREN

some things are juz not meant to be held ceteris paribus.

effort muz be made. else even da least suspecting will change its taste. sry i din make tt effort. sry tt both of us din make tt effort.

anywae, managed to catch dis song on mtv. find dis song so-so b4 i saw da mtv. but scores a 8/10 from mi aft tt. 7.9/8 of it goes to hebe. :)

退后

天空灰的像哭过
离开你以后
并没有更自由
酸酸的空气
守住我们的距离
一幕醉心的结局
像呼吸般无法停息
抽屉泛黄的日记
找到了回忆
那笑容是傻气
你我的过去
被深深真的忘记
缺氧过后的爱情
存心的眼泪是多余
我知道你我都没有错
只是忘了怎么退后
信誓旦旦给的承诺
全被时间扑了空
我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

我知道我们都没有错
只是放手会比较好过
最美的爱情回忆里带去

RECAP OF ROAD TRIP : A PICTIONARY

aft a 4-hrs long drive on our hyundai trajet, finally reached da shoulder of da genting highlands. :)

mi styling up, while mr tan da useless kio da bed on da instance we checked in to our room. both of us ended up slping on da floor fer da nxt 2 nites. lolz...

PIZZA FEAST!!! supreme hawaiian stuffed-crust pizza cost us rm22. muahaha!!!

a first world full moon view.

thx to my dad's recommendation, we came to a place called 'mushroom hut'. food is cheap and service is great. ended up having our meals there for da remaining of our stay.

no im not acting cool. wuz chewing on my ice-cream. haha...

high-risk manoeuvre on da rd. do try dis if u have da chance.

ahem...

retribution...


pic taken on our last nite out. shioking-cold.

hellish condition to drive. but we came thru.

a tribute to da warhorse. n of cos...

to da photo-whores. cheers bros!!! :)

HMMM... INTERESTING...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you don't need. You just feel like flirting around and playing right now.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

ONE 'LAST' VICE

same old place, same old music, same old faces, and of cos, same old company.

tho da nite came to a premature end, i hope every1 had their fair share of fun(i hope). definitely had mine. if onli all of us are working now, den we can most probably do dis every wed. hahaha...

somehow a feeling came gushing towards mi last nite... but i tink its juz a feeling... smthg wanting mi to attend to, tt i hav long neglected.

n finally watched newcastle match aft exam. great showing of character last nite... tho no result gained. still proud tt my team put up a decent fight. but still kick da fat freddy out of da board. prick.

training ltr. a reality waiting to come true. no pt running from it. n seriously, i dun f care wat hh told mi bout wat ppl said. lost all passion fer it. if not lost all passion in mi, except soccer and money i guess. lolz... juz a matter of time, when i call it a day.

help mi to control. help mi to be disciplined. help mi to cherish. help mi to let go.

amen.

HAPS

finally stayed at home for a nite... shall juz rest at home for da match ltr... probably get some hoegaarden from ntuc for da game. :) life! shiok! wahaha...

juz heard tt training will commence tmr. sianz... somehow juz not in da mood for tt now. maybe i juz wan to hav da freedom to decide on how to spend my time as i wan it. sux man...

anywae played soccer todae. got injured slightly again. best part was i went back hall to get my shoes, onli to realise i onli brought ONE shoe to sp! wtf sia... end up driving back to hall n get da other one... cow...

somehow da idea of school starting again is terrifying. endless tutorials, trainings, tuitions, canteen food, etc. yucks... hai... juz wan time for myself seriously. not lyk im not having them but i juz wan more control. why got trainings......

n yes. home is definitely better den hall life. even tho im not having my own room or even computer at home, its juz comfy. its reallie da ppl inside a home tt matters. feeling fortunate. thank God.

tink i'll try to quit fags for good. tink studying reallie can settle some1 down... hahaha... shall TRY to be a gd student from now on... buahaha...

xmas is near. a new look is coming up. :)

went to sis' condo ytd. great place, great view! but even better wuz da 2-storey penthouse tt da condo offers. yup decided tt it will be my target n 憧憬 for da future... shall work hard fer my $30k/mth... hehe...

for all da gd things, and bad things, i thank you Lord.

amen.

ROAD TRIP TO GENTING

how come time passes by so quickly when u are enjoying da most? if onli studying is so easy to bear...

great time, great company, n definitely great fun. aft all da shits to take from a first semester, da short trip definitely helped mi to unwind. photos to be up soon.

from da journey back and fro genting highlands (not to mention da rm50 we had to pay to write off our speeding tix), cheap food, killing spree in da casino (for mi onli i guess... lolz), massageS, to juz simply enjoying da cold wind n chilling outside starbucks, i love every minute of it. sometimes i reallie feel tt its da coy tt counts. definitely unable to enjoy as much as wid ppl i noe less... n i reallie wonder how some ppl can seem to enjoy moments wid acquaintances more den frens whom u noe much longer. guess its a matter of perspective.

tok alot about stuff. school, friends, army, love life, past, present, craps. surprisingly there's notting bout da future. realised all of us havnt changed much. still laughing at lame jokes which onli we understand. haha...

n btw, things look different when u are driving at 160km/hr. lolz... crave for speed.

fer all dis, i thank God. for da fun, and safety of us all of cos...

amen.

LIFE

finally, able to take a step back n relax.

soccered on fri and todae... and mahjong ltr!!! not to mention how fucking wasted i got last nite... omg so so so pai say... but den again... 2 best frens' bdae and tonnes of alcohol as ammunition lead to a road to self-destruction... hai... is it possible to change course now?!?! 没脸见人...

seriously, its scary how alcohol can make u forget things tt u do... n of course how un-glam it makes u(when u start puking). oh well, lesson learnt. martell + vodka + cordeau + white wine + medicine + empty stomach = poison.

realised how long its been since i reallie rested at home... simple things lyk walking arnd and stoning in da living room, watching tv till 3am, showering at home (forgot which wuz my toothbrush...), waking up at 2pm etc. its amazing wat exams can do to u... SEVEN times more!

...

fuck lah totally cant get last nite off my mind... nv expected such poor showing from mi man... why?!?!?! seh...

ok even tho not many ppl can see dis, but juz wanna say reallie sry fer last nite... pls do not tink less of mi... im still mi... gimme another chance to prove my worth... LOLZ... kidding...

thank God fer time, cant imagine if time can stop. den ill hav exams and pukes forever.

amen.