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u noe... i realise how man can reallie adapt with time... juz when i woke up dis aftnn n tot it wuz quite a gd week... i went to read mohan's blog... den all of a sudden da fire came burning in me again...
yes... i forgot... thankxxx to chionging last nite... hahaha... as mohan whined bout... its 1 whole week of shit... basically bravo battery got themselves involved in da 'battalion effort' of S'pore Light-Weight Howitzer Pegasus Commissioning... but from wat most can see... its bravo doing all da damn sai gang... 1st wuz da 40 camo nets which we are supposed to check... if u tink its quite a sight... tink again when u're supposed to unroll them ALL!!! i came back to bunk wid notting but camo nets in my mind da whole day... nxt wuz loading of 200 chairs up da 5-ton... n yes... unloading n placing them in order... in which a MWO insisted on a '3-finger' spacing fer all chairs ahead of Chief of Arty's vetting... b4 i woke up his idea tt my men's fingers are of diff. lengths n sizes... let alone da fact tt there will be a final adjustment when Chief arrives... more shits awaited us... setting up tentages... clearing up da ground... n of cos... ceasing da whole damn party... n all dis... done mostly by bravo... in space of 3-4 days... da rest of da battalion??? charlie battery provided 2 detachments for da exhibition deployment n da remaining slacked in their bunk... alpha battery supposedly to do sentry, which lasted 1 nite, n so-call 'fire-fighting' battery which answers to any last min cock ups... wow. truely a great way to split da chores. truely a battalion effort.
on thurs me n huiren (nsf BC) were informed by BC tt we are expected to be back tml to clear up da whole place... when he broke da news to me... i walked away... making it clear tt im unimpressed... he took mi aside n promised to make up to me...
its not bout me... its da men...
'i noe... lyk tt enuff???' showing mi 2 fingers...
2weeks???
'no lah... siao... how??? enuff???' showing me 3 dis time round... looking proud... as though he'll buy me over fer sure...
i forgot wat i did to break away tokking to him... but i rem i almost showed him my single middle finger n stick it up his arse. ok... we are not claiming all da credits... alpha did send some 20 ppl to help at da end of everythg while we provided wat??? 40 men n 8 specs?!?!
booked out arnd 7pm... went MU... music n chivas drowned da bitterness n unjust... n here i am... woke up with an aching neck...
why i said man can adapt well??? see... as much as im complaining bout da week... im getting reallie numb wid such stuffs... stuffs lyk sai gang... unjust... army's rigidity... or rather some of da senior commanders' stubbornness... n now... i find it easier to feel for my men...
'sergeant why always bravo doing all these arh!?!?'
cos we MING4 JIAN4. but i wud reply, 'its a battalion effort. others have things to do too.'
'sergeant why ONLI bravo doing arh!?!?'
cos we hav a BC who's totally CMI. always gena arrow. n meant tt WE got arrowed. but i justify, 'u see tt ground??? alpha cleared tt up.' yah rite.
'sergeant are we expected to do blar³ oso?!?!'
definitely. but, 'we'll see.'
im finding it easier to lie bout such things... cos it pains me to see da looks on my gunners when they noe da truth... even though i noe most of da time they noe it... its lyk as though they are onli worth tt much... doing all dis crap n feeling being aimed... so much so for da glory days from india... when we came back wid so much pride... undoubtly da best battery in da exercise...
but glory days no more...
... 5mths 16days... amen.