SOMETHING TO CELEBRATE BOUT...

yup its almost cfm... a buffet at my place on da 4th... ktv indented though i seriously finding it a joke... reallie getting excited bout da whole thing... n yes... fer da 1st time in my life im planning a big party fer myself... lolz...

however... da prospect of it being a flop is likely... mainly cos of my inexperience... and da uncertainty of da turn out... wonder if there's enuff food to go arnd... n beer of cos... let alone chairs maybe... haha... had a look at my guest list... rather shocking... not my side tho... its my MUM'S... yup relatives are coming... yup ang baos expected... and yup $1.20 in one of them expected as well( no joke)...

looking back... its been a long time since i hav such celebration... da last time wuz probably 15 yrs back... den at bt. batok macdonald's... hahaha... so fun back den... tho da company of kids wid mi were largely strangers... hee... weird rite... wuz expecting ronald macdonald to come down personally to hand mi my presents... but turned out to be da manager of da chain... kao... wat a let down...

ever since den... my bdaes were often neglected and forgotten... if not juz a plain celebration wid my family... i mean of cos its better den notting... but too many a times where i find myself paying fer ppl's gifts and and getting notting in return... rather deprived... tts why dis 1 MUZ work out... tts why it HAS to work out!!! haha...

b4 i get out of hand bout da whole thing... juz wanna thank god fer dis fabulous 21 yrs of my life.... fer da many ups and downs... tho sometimes feel its too much of a down... but its pain u learn how to appreciate da better side... hee... and fer da ppl tt hav made a difference in my life... fer such great pals arnd mi... and lastly fer such a supportive and heart-warming family...

amen.

AFTER ACTION REVIEW

the past few days were great. great in a sense tt i felt i'd learnt alot... reallie glad to hav to exposure and experience im getting myself to... though at times demoralising... but at da end of da day i managed to achieve wat i set myself to do... failure, i feel, is nothg if i dun feel defeated myself... and i hope i can maintain such learning momentum as long as possible...

have been giving thoughts bout wat i reallie wan for my 21st birthday... although its reallie so unlike me to declare my wants... there's always an exception... lolz... juz an excuse... so here goes da list, not in sequence:

01. SHIRTS... time to get dressed up...
02. SHOES... always a fetish... nike dunk series... adidas sports wear... converse canvas wear... yummy.
03. a new wallet... da 1 im using now is leaking cash severely at an alarming rate...
04. a levi's jeans... dunno why levi's... prob getting brand conscious, but no prob wid guess or zara either...
05. t-shirts... to prepare myself for U...
06. perfume... hmmm... juz feel tt its bout time for it too... esp if i plan to work...
07. cash of 500bucks... so i hav no worries of celebrating wid whoever i wan to... current bank acc.: $121.46... stress...
08. own room... yes... i hav none... and yes... im still slping wid my parents... stress again.
09. pass my driving... so i dun hav to put up wid more abuse from my instructor...
10. TOP PRIZE in 4D... money isnt everything... but it works miraculiously on everything...

last but not least... tt god bless every1 around mi... everythg tt i cherish in life... cos w/o them... there's no more meaning even to another 21st again... amen.

HAPPENINGS

yes its been far too long... too long ago since i posted... too long since i wuz back from nz... far too long since i feel FREEDOM!!! can u believe how time can reallie fly??? i cant... n b4 i noe... im gg 21... gg back to sch all over again... and im least prepared fer it...

since its been such long time... i'll take my time on dis 1... 1st on nz...

thunder warrior... i shud say... a big success cos NOONE got injured... thank u lord!!! now all of us can ORD in peace... :) new zealand is easily da most beautiful place i've ever set foot on... everything seems outrageously pleasant to my eyes... dunno if any1 share such experience... but hav u ever came back from overseas feeling spore is so damn clean??? not dis time round... spore seems less colorful when i arrived back den from nz... tho im reallie glad to see my family aft so long... shud say da 2 countries are totally diff. in beauty... spore's... er... shit... cant tink of any of its beauty... prob its my frenz and family!!! hahaha... shall juz comment bout nz...

nz, on da other hand, is so NATURAL... reallie 100% NZ man... sheeps... sheeps... and more sheeps!!! not to forget da greens and cows everywhere... ppl are all so friendly too... kiwis makes mi wonder is it reallie tt hard fer us to put a smile on our face constantly... regret not taking more photos... hope i'll be back there again in some later stage of my life... thinking of migration lolz... but its reallie cold out there... cant imagine myself out there enduring da wind w/o my gloves and windbreaker... hee...

da feeling back home wuz reallie great... cos technically it marks da end to ns!!! wahaha!!! FREEDOM!!! been up to no gd dis few days... slack and slp and shop and club and EAT lyk nobody's business!!! hahaha... tried finding jobs half-heartedly but to no avail... hope i'll strike lucky wid da current pending oppotunity tho... went fer my long dued medical appts as well... bad news... operation needed confirmed... stress... hope i'll come back unscarred... and hopefully get some compensation from SAF...

march is da month to watch... 1st it's my bdae... marks an end to teenage days to adulthood... cant imagine calling myself an ADULT... sux... ney... im still gonna buy CHILD tix fer swimming... still gonna try to get student discounts whenever i can!!! hahaha... nxt it's da much dreaded driving test on 7th... tho im already fucking prepared to fail... sianz... hope can come up wid da $$$ to pay fer more drivings... den it's my operation on 8th... following a trip back camp to fetch my PINK NRIC on da 14th!!! gdbye det4... gdbye bravo battery... fuck off 23sa!!! fuck off khatib camp!!! wahaha!!! tho i muz say... it'd been a blast...

wuz reading all da entries i posted back den... great to read back on wat i thought back den... shud try to post more nxt time i guess... hahaha... feel tt i've reallie changed... no gd or bad bout tt... juz more ready to accept reality and dis shitty society... hopefully some child in me still retains... tho i believe my mentality has reallie evolved... tink im getting reallie extreme over several issues in life... probably witnessed by my buddies arnd mi... hope im not seen as a freak man...

but den again... i dun reallie care... im content wid wat i hav rite now...

and i wan to believe tt way.

amen.