THOUGHTS

some temptations are juz too hard to resist. feeling ashamed, but at da same time feel tt its ok so long i noe da limits. but still, da promise is broken. loser.

went for bike rally todae. freaking shack. 138km arnd sg. doesnt help when i din get any slp from da day b4. reached back hall at 330am n left for east coast at 4am. seh kar... but dbl 0 wuz real fun wid cheap drinks and cock frens. buahaha!!! anywae, we onli managed to complete bout 100km of da whole journey cos all of our butt can take it no more. walking funny and burning lyk crazy now.

rushed down to orchard presbyterian church to attend sis' baptism aft bike rally. really feel happy for her. dad n mum din come along. apparently not supporting sis' baptism, asking her tense questions like if she will burn incense for them when they pass away.

prayed that she can enjoy a happy marriage. as usual dosed off during da sermons. feeling kinda worried. somehow i dun feel Him. maybe i juz need to go more church. but somehow there's always thoughts at da back of my head questioning my belief and faith.

kinda disturbed by dad and mum reaction. im not siding who's right or wrong, but i do rem da bible teaches us to obey our parents. hai... really not in da mood to tink bout my faith right now. maybe im really not ready. but i noe there's nv a right time for such things. n i shudnt be avoiding it. but still, ill pray.

really need to slp. nite ppl. :)

GIRL POWER

if you havnt seen da video for dis song, u'll nv realise she's THAT hot. :)

4 In The Morning
Gwen Stefani

Wakin' up to find another day

The moon got lost again last night
But now the sun has finally had it’s say
I guess I feel alright

But it hurts
when I think,
when I let it sink in
It’s all over me
I'm lying here in the dark
Watchin you sleep, it hurts a lot

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right

All I wanted was to know I'm safe
Don’t wanna lose the love I found
Remember when you said that you would change
Don’t let me down

It’s not fair, how you are
I can’t be complete, can you give me more

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right

Oh please, you know what I need
Save all your love for me
We can’t escape the love
Give me everything that you have

And all I know is you’ve got to give me everything
Nothing less 'cause you know I give you all of me

I give you everything that I am
I’m handin over everything that I’ve got
Cause I wanna have a really true love
Don’t ever wanna have to go and give you up
Stay up till four in the morning and the tears are pouring
And I wanna make it worth the fight
What have we been doing for all this time
Baby if we’re gonna do it come on do it right

oh gwen baby, if no1 loves you, i will. hahaha...

n yes, luv is all bout give AND take, not juz give and give and give......

DRAINED LIFE

tuition is reallie draining my life away. maybe paul is rite, that if it becomes a chore, maybe its bout time to call it a day.

anywae, ran out of assessment for mr wilkie todae, so took out his assessment book n 'modified' some questions by changing da numbers here and there. eventually got too bored so changed smthg else: names. alot of names came up my mind, so juz went wid da flow. used my name oso. lolz... says alot bout how fun tuition is aint it?

during dis time, some names tt qualify as 'thou shalt not be named' came up. went on to used them nevertheless. whatever da case, hope u ppl are living well, esp. 'you', 'u', and 'U'.

watched a hongkong movie ytd b4 i went to slp. tot of 'U' den. wuz wondering bout da big question still. wat if things have gone differently? tho 'U' were da 1 hu hurt mi most, i cant help but to wonder tt if i can ever find sm1 as perfect as 'U' may seem. hai... loneliness kicking in... haha... ... wats wid dis 'haha...' anywae. tink im kinda losing it. help.

feeling reallie old as well. almost fainted aft doing gym todae. instead of blackout, it struck mi as my whole world gg white. forgot hu my father mother wuz tt moment. went on to relax in da pool till 12plus. freaking hot. whole body burning now... aft tt went fer tuition for mr eugene ho.( yes my kid has da same name as our eugene ho, maybe tts why im having so much shit from him.) n for ppl hu hav an issue wid my english, wait till u hav a taste of his. i swear u'll cry fer ur mama. den mr wilkie. den home.

tink i need more activities to keep mi from wandering unneccesary stuff. but i luv dis time of my life tho. beats draining my life on books in hall.

maybe all i need is a long-due holiday getaway.

or maybe...

i juz need money?

a life perspective?

a new target?

God.

HOLIDAY

i juz wan my well-deserved break. juz things as i wan it to be. so, no unnecessary shits pls... in no mood for tolerance.

been doing wat i'd always been telling myself to do after exams:

1. nuah lyk there's no tmr.
2. stay in my black hole, where time is no longer da essence.
3. stay at home, watch tv, cook my myojo mee for supper.
4. slp wid notting to wake up to.
5. gym sessions.
6. physio for my leg.
7. club. ( hopefully tonite n friday for sure.)
8. watch serialS.
9. eat meals at home w/o needing to rush out immediately after tt.

n yes all of da above make mi a happy man. :)

simple things lyk tt are always missed during sch term. even my family is commenting how weird it is to see mi so nuah. how i wish things can stay dis way.

n reallie, sometimes u wonder hu reallie noes u best. juz when u tot u knew.

so, bwta, now tt we are so damn free, how bout getting da ball rolling?

to Nobel peace prize, da remaining 998.65million, n world domination. HUAT ah!!!